One senior's travels on the knowledge path to Moksha, using poetry, essays, and stories as a means of transportation.
- The Ancient Hippie
- Retired from 10 years in the Canadian Navy, and 28 years in the Canadian Diplomatic Service, with postings in Beijing, Mexico City, Sri Lanka, Romania, Abu Dhabi, Guyana, Ireland, Trinidad, and, last but not least, India.
Thursday, 30 August 2007
The Final Autumn
Like some monolith to a youthful Endymion
the slate-grey sky did not permit
the epitaph etched by strato-cirrus
to be read.
Stark trees, wind-shorn of frivolous foliage,
did cold penitence for their summer follies:
a circadian confession to ensure
vernal resurrection.
Restless, colourless waves of November
marched mindlessly to assault the strand,
implacably expunging the bare and carefree footprints
of Summer.
* * *
His perusal was fond; a lover's caress
fraught with the echoes of past joy.
His eyes drank deeply of autumn's tumultuous brew;
but his heart savoured past vintages.
The echoes swirled in aural and visual
kaleidoscopic patterns:
chimerical memories vying for recognition.
A child, he saw, wading through sun-warmed tidal pools,
spying drifts of mermaids hair,
entranced by magical shells
exploding in profusion about his joyous toes.
Before his eyes the child became a man,
guiding another child
through the mysteries of summer,
through the wonder of the seasons.
A young man, he saw, puzzled and confused,
searching barren streets
devoid of the companionship
of light and laughter.
* * *
The young man, changing, now more assured;
older, but certain in his steps,
sure of his direction
towards some unknown goal.
The old man watched himself, fearful,
loath to follow the path
that led inexorably
beyond his ken.
* * *
His return was slow, a painful trudge.
His wife, younger, bore his Celtic melancholia
with the ease of loving practice.
Bringing his Bushmills', she told him,
now warmed by the fire, that the children
would be home for Christmas.
* * *
On First Seeing Bermuda
scent of jacaranda,
eucalyptus,
oleander, and bougainvillea.
Houses of pastels
that breathe in gentle sunlight:
perfection set in
manicured lawns.
Accents attenuated
from the harsher Caribbean,
friendly voices
greet, and smile.
From Gibb’s Hill,
a visual smorgasbord
tasting subtly, and sadly,
of Eden lost.
Monday, 27 August 2007
The Choice
I have often mused about the greed of Man, and of our proclivity for consumption, and of our lack of moderation, and the absence of consideration of the natural and inevitably consequences of cause and effect.
Suppose for a moment that one were standing at a mythical control panel upon which were affixed several different switches which were all set in the ON position. The labels on the brightly coloured, attractive, high impact plastic switches read as follows:
Rainforest/old growth forest logging.
Leaving this switch ON will deplete the amount of oxygen being produced to support the requirements of future generations, and is contributing to changing global weather patterns.
Overfishing and continued pollution of the world’s oceans.
This will continue to empty what once seemed an infinite source of food, and will ultimately become a great watery salt desert, contributing further to changing and catastrophic weather patterns.
Lack of control over industrial air and land pollutants.
This will further contribute to the occasional "yellow" days over rural Nova Scotia caused by smog generated by Massachusetts, New York, and New Jersey industries. More and more of the very young and the elderly will die each summer as the high concentration of chemical particulate is trapped by thermal inversion. Ozone layer depletion will continue, and the rate of skin cancer and eye problems will escalate. Almost everyone is driving a Hummer.
Economic Militarism.
Nations, both large and small, continue to attack other nations with the purpose of seizing natural resources that are decreasing logarithmically. Often minefields are left behind that severely cripple the ability of the attacked nation to resume a degree of normalcy after such attacks. Canada becomes increasingly eyed as a natural resource jewel by both the United States and China.
Failure to address global societal inequalities.
This switch remains ON. Guerrilla groups (which the large militaristic nations call terrorists) continue to strike at the heart of major industrial nations. Continued support for the right wing state of Israel and the support of repressive regimes in many Arab countries by the industrialised nations makes continued jihad a life-choice for most young Arab men. African tribes continue to be routinely slaughtered by other tribes, as AIDS affects almost half of sub-Saharan Africa.
There were other switches with less earth-changing cause and effect, but all of them led, slowly but inexorably to a future in which our planet was left as an arid, depleted husk, devoid of life, and drifting alone in a cosmos where our brief human experience was judged by the natural balance of Chaos, and found severely wanting.
I wonder, would one be brave enough to start turning these switches OFF, one at a time, and accept some measure of personal inconvenience balanced against future and sustainable prosperity? Or would one leave the switches ON, and accept the gratification of the moment, smile contentedly while listening to the music of the industrial machinery as we marched, lemming-like, towards future extinction?
For me, there is no choice.
Sic transit gloria
The Cinnamon Gardens Commute
I remembered, this morning,
the early morning walk
from six upon three (6/3) Wijerama Mawatha
to number six Gregory’s Road.
I smelt again the texture
of the Sri Lankan dust
stimulating my nose;
the pungency of rotting vegetation
piled by storm drains
that awaited the next
monsoonal overflow;
and the eye-watering sharpness of a length
of burning coir rope
hanging outside a small roadside lean-to
so that customers could light
their purchased beedis,
made from the sweepings
of the nationalised Benson Hedges factory,
catering to the addictive needs
of the working class.
This, and the deep brown sweet aroma
of stacked pieces of jaggery fudge,
home-made from coconut sugar,
blending in exotic melange
with the spicy call of
devilled cashew nuts:
all proffered by a smiling proprietor
with a name as exotic
as his varied wares.
I pass Horton Place,
and stare in envious wonder
at Professor Arthur C. Clarke’s
satellite dish,
as the kerosene man passes me,
his bullock cart lending
strange contrast in a land
where paradox is commonplace.
Turning onto Gregory’s Road,
I am flanked by a phalanx
of pink cassia, breadfruit,
frangipani, teak, various mimosa,
and the towering cinnamon trees
that give the area its name.
The distinctive call of the knife-sharpener,
brings cooks running from their busy kitchens
to take advantage of his curb-side trade.
The fecund olive trees in the garden
of the High Commission
are dropping their abundant fruit:
a neon flash of parakeets bursts
from laden branches,
as I start another
long day at the office.
Anger In The Street
Anger in the Street
An anthology of black and white poetic snapshots of societal mores and priorities in a changing urban environment
Against the Wall
The crypt coldness
were a hentai fantasy;
short, with slits
and scoop;
and a mile of leg
disappearing
into leather micro.
Her eyes held that look
of reflective knowledge
found only in the better work
of a few Dutch Masters.
The mind-place
she visited while working
was an old friend
from a lost childhood,
a place to which
she continued to be drawn,
even after learning
her test was positive.
Shelter
She
sits quietly,
near the window,
eyes nervously
tracking
remembered pain.
She
does not know
where
she will go
when
frugal municipal funds
force closure
on her shelter.
She
still believes
if she had tried
harder,
if she were
a better person,
he would never
have hurt her.
The Swarming
The Library was her refuge:
through her thick lenses
she travelled far beyond
these sordid streets.
She lunched
with Byron and Yeats;
held off dervishes
with Gordon.
She was a true Bene Gesserit;
a Reverend Mother
of some note.
In the litter-planted park
the Ten cursed and fought,
discussing,
monosyllabic,
the direction the evening
should take.
Their oversized clothing,
with uniform drabness,
prompted visions
of children
playing dress-up
in the rainy-day attic of a kinder world.
They surrounded
and devoured her
in their contrived anger.
Broken glasses,
scattered books,
ripped pages, lay mute
in the mud.
Her broken body
was serene and regal:
somewhen
the Sisterhood
mourned the passing
of a respected colleague,
and, at the siege of Khartoum,
Gordon fought on,
alone.
“Body and Soul”*
The mellow sound
of his alto sax
suffuses
the pedestrian mall
with the echo
of a gentler
time.
Several older listeners
think of Charlie Parker,
of Stan Getz,
and of the magical freedom
jazz bestows
on the human
soul.
His worn Stetson
accepted the tribute
of coins
that could not begin
to feed the hunger
behind
his scarred arms.
He plays
as though his spirit
was aflame,
the difficulty of his
methadone treatment
and his worsening Hep C
forgotten.
He smiles
as several of his listeners
break into applause,
just before
tone-deaf Mall Security
roughly tells him
to move along.
* “Body and Soul” is the title of a recording made in 1939 by Coleman Hawkins that became THE model for later jazz solos on all instruments.
Reuse-Return-Recycle
The rusted wreck
of the broken shopping cart
serendipitously proceeded
from one green plastic
mother lode
to the next.
Its guide,
hidden beneath layers
that could have inspired
Escher’s genius at morphing,
was, however, more evocative
of Hieronymus Bosch.
He mined
each green trove assiduously,
adding nuggets of refundable treasure
carefully
to his creaking, wobbling chariot.
His acute accountant’s mind
kept a running total
in crisp, clean ledgers that,
alone, survived
the culture shock,
the corporate downsizing,
of the Nineteen Eighties.
Fog People
You often
almost see them
from the corner
of your eye.
You sense
a wisp of grey,
a floating,
ethereal
movement
that suddenly
d i s s o l v e s.
They drift
quietly,
gently,
on the edge
of our consciousness:
these pale,
these grey,
these haunting
people,
whom all,
but Time,
have forgotten.
If we chance
to pause,
to peer beyond
the drifting veil,
we see,
within the shroud,
a preview of ourselves
tomorrow.
Injection
The television
and the cell phone
from the break-in
purchased
a plastic packet
of peace.
The needle
was new:
clean and free.
Soon
the magical tsunami
would sweep away
his soul.
The powder,
pure and deadly,
should have been
adulterated
to slow the rush
of fragile heart.
The young man,
releasing the dam,
felt, for an instant,
the cool brick wall
of his derelict mausoleum,
then was gone.
Air Vent Requiem
His muttered dialogue with Jesus
was apologetic and respectful,
politely drawing that Deity’s attention
to cosmic oversights.
The supermarket cart,
full of strange lumps and extrusions,
seemed a natural extension of self.
His eyes never viewed
a potential acquisition directly:
they fluttered, like children’s wishes,
skirting the object of desire,
until, overcome by belief,
he would pounce.
The temperature drop,
that negated the meagre warmth
of the hot air vent that was his home,
temporarily interrupted
his celestial conversation.
In the thin morning light,
the cart stands guard
over the still and huddled body,
like some alien monument
commemorating a battle
few have known.
Under the Bridge
Fog from the river
gathers under the bridge,
dampening cardboard,
chilling marrow
and shrouding soul.
Moans rise
to a waning moon:
nightmare screams
shatter
an uncaring stillness.
Bundles of rags,
drawn to the dying fire,
mutter
querulous monologues
in alien tongues.
Bent figure,
urinating in icy water,
stumbles, splashes,
and is gone
without a ripple.
Testimony
He easily ignored
the stares,
the crude comments,
the threatening gestures,
engendered
by his street-corner ministry:
his testament of Faith.
He overcame his fear
with his Belief
that, even in these squalid
ghetto streets,
the Word
should enlighten.
While he sang
“What a Friend we have
in Jesus,”
a hulk in gangsta garb
spat on him,
and he worried that
his Testimony
only made
his God
sad.
Third World Stigmata
The depth of sadness
in the girl's eyes
held the attention of all
on the air-conditioned
tourist bus.
No older
than eight or nine,
she wove her way deftly
through dense Delhi traffic,
propelling her steel-castered,
wooden platform
with sure strokes of her hands.
Last year
her impoverished parents had
sold her,
the youngest,
so that the family could live.
Her new owner,
realising the value
of his investment,
ensured that the operation,
removing both legs,
was sterile:
she was on the street
within two months.
Pausing at the corner lights,
the bus disgorged
several tourists,
who pressed rupee notes
upon the small amputee.
They had no way of knowing
their gift
perpetuated
slavery and mutilation.
Bus Station Encounter
The stench
of excrement-stained clothing,
of body long unwashed,
almost obscured
the rich vocabulary,
the cultural cadence
of the derelict’s voice.
The young woman
did not hear
his compliments;
did not recognise
his astute and
favourable analysis
of her fashion statement.
She merely said,
“Piss off,
or I’ll scream.”
Diamonds in the Gutter
Smiles flashing,
like memories
of some distant sun,
they pursue
the soccer ball
with feral glee.
Their communication
is joyous,
a staccato burst,
an ethnic melange
born of the urgency
of the streets.
They are aware,
but do not see
the syringes, condoms,
empty bottles;
an alternate reality
from another world.
Dealers, junkies,
pros, and winos:
all known and greeted equally
by these small,
energetic
dreams of tomorrow.
Sound Bite
The motorcade,
stopping before cameras
and microphones,
was as incongruous
as a guffaw at a funeral.
The surrounding buildings,
derelict and time-worn
as the few faces peering,
confused, from the mouldy doorways
and flaking windowsills,
were stark:
tones of black, white, and grey:
a dismal dream of some forgotten disaster.
The mayor,
cloaked with a bonhomie
born of a profound sense of self-worth,
smiled, facing the cameras:
yes, the city had concluded
a mutually satisfying agreement
with the developer.
The area would be
reclaimed,
revitalised,
refurbished,
and released from the state of decay
into which it had fallen.
The one radical reporter
who wished to question
relocation of the low rental units,
the rehab centre, the soup kitchens,
was swept aside
by smiling, applauding businessmen,
anxious to escape
such unsavoury environs.
Curbside Retrospective
His thin shoulders
hunched
against the chill
evening mist,
he surveyed
the oncoming cars
with a weary look
of superior
disdain.
The weariness within
belied
his sixteen years.
He longed for
the peace
of his shabby room,
the distracting noise
and diversion
of his Game Cube.
The Audi slowed...
stopped.
Power window lowered,
terms and conditions
discussed.
The boy noted the tie,
the service club
lapel pin,
and hated the man
nearly as much
as the abusive father,
now
far
away.
Squeegee Kids
Some commuters
drive for
m i l e s
out of their way,
wasting
time and money,
to avoid
Squeegee corners:
the penalty of guilt.
Others pay,
avoiding eye contact,
looking.......straight.......ahead,
afraid
the gunge
of the Squeegee’s rag
may damage Audi shine.
They reinforce
the efficacy of intimidation
as a social grace.
The global village
has come of age,
as this phenomena,
indigenous once
solely to third world cities,
has arrived on
Main Street,
and urban crowding,
with youth unemployment,
makes
the sale of fear
a career of necessity
to those
we continue to
ignore.
Diminished Responsibility
Her pregnancy, only minutes from term,
gave her the look of a tumbleweed
as she stumbled
through killing December cold.
Sally Ann band on windswept corner
marked the passage of one whose experience
was the cosmic opposite of their celestial joy:
"...crib for His bed, the little Lord..."
With labour pains almost constant
she turned into the alley,
sheltering in the shadow of
a green dumpster, which exhorted
a more affluent society to
"Keep our City Clean."
She squatted as her water broke,
and cursed her most recent companion
for throwing her out
when her condition
invalidated her use to him.
She blasted her last two rocks
in the lifeline of her pipe,
and suddenly, “God!”
It was done.
The investigative team
discovered the icy creche
near the area where
the Paras had found her,
collapsed, in the street.
The rookie swore
when he opened the dumpster,
quick tears freezing on his cheeks,
while in the distance,
the Army concluded their ministry
with "O Holy Night."
Sanctuary
The lone priest
fussed over his nightly chores:
fresh coffee made,
fresh styrofoam cups,
bulk cookies,
clean bathroom.
The month old magazines
lay scattered
like the broken promises
of yesterday.
He dreaded
the ritual that was about
to occur:
nightly flow
of addicts,
teenaged prostitutes
of both genders,
older hookers,
and many others
who accepted,
for a brief time,
sanctuary.
He hated
how his body,
kindled
by the presence
of his younger
visitors,
betrayed his faith,
as he fought
a lonely battle,
already lost.
Yesterday’s Children
The stiffness of the morning
will s l o w l y
work its way
out of tired joints.
Bland breakfasts
ensure
regularity,
a welcomed monotony.
Well-planned days
permit
no dismal contemplation
of tomorrow.
We are Yesterday’s children,
remembering too well,
the heat and the passion,
the beauty that was ours.
Hearing echoes
of past glories,
we sojourn here today,
until,
like dreams
and memories,
we gently
fade
away.
The Teacher
Another when,
and he ruled his Eng Lit classes
from the comforts
of tweeds well worn.
Today, though,
stumps of pencils, flags of paper,
were secreted willy-nilly
deep in the rags
that called him home.
Teaching when and where he could,
urchin and ancient alike
found benefit
from his memory of a life
before his Fall.
A name spelled here,
welfare application there,
laboured reading
of gutter-trapped headlines;
the street seemed less ugly
for his students.
Shorn heads and hard booted,
the Furies fell upon him
one cold night
for possession of his half bottle
of fortified wine.
Surrounded by his small blank bits of paper,
and short, sharpened stubs of pencils,
he resembled nothing so much
as an incomplete jigsaw puzzle,
its meaning not quite clear.
Waiting for the Night
His reinforced aluminum
sturdy-grip cane
timidly precedes him,
its three legs
reminiscent
of a baby Triffid,
uncertain
in an alien
environment.
The twice-weekly visit
of a harried
social worker
barely scratches
the surface
of his age-imposed
needs:
his clothes are dirtier,
diet less varied,
body weaker,
sight dimmer,
brain more forgetful
than a few short
months ago.
Puzzled,
at the foot of the steps,
he has already
forgotten
his destination:
his Triffid
slowly
leads him
into city traffic.
The Choice
The magnitude
of his fear
dwarfed
his thirteen years.
While crushing
his spirit,
the streets also
extinguished hope.
Perhaps home,
with continuing abuse,
would remove
the terror
of the alleys.
Nemesis
She was proud of her skill
with her three-toed cane.
Her walk
from the Home
to Thrift Store
took just twenty minutes:
then fifteen minutes
to the donut shop
where she’d meet
some of the Girls.
Concentrating
on her next step,
she was shocked,
surprised,
as her faithful shoulder bag
was wrenched
from her grip.
Baggy trousers
slowed his sprint;
dragging cuffs
impeded his balance
as fate,
gravity,
and forward motion
conspired,
then placed him in the path
of the accelerating Transit bus.
She recovered her handbag,
and left the scene
without
a backward
glance.
The Guardian
As an active father, long ago,
he had worn parental responsibility
as a proud and brilliant banner.
His children, now grown,
banner-draped themselves,
frequently implored
he join them in their far-off lives.
He would not, however,
leave her grave untended;
could not abandon shared dreams
that wisped, like Atlantic fog,
through city streets
where they had strolled,
in kinder years, together.
Now, from the window
of his third-floor walk-up,
he surveyed the children of strangers.
Neighbourhood Watch
provided name and number
of an interested, responsive officer,
who valued civic responsibility.
Drug dealers avoided
his visual charges:
bullies and punks sought distant,
more fertile ground.
In the street, children skipped,
tossed balls, laughed and played
under his watchful eye.
Behind him, sometimes,
in the twilight,
he imagined her presence,
and felt the warmth
of her vanished smile.
Urban Diorama
The park,
an oasis of green calm
threatened by a desert
of office towers,
was the place,
favoured by the avatars
of the fiscal god Chaos,
for a quick lunch
and smoke.
Precisely at one-o-five
he would shamble
to his special bench,
across from the pigeon toilet
that resembled
Robbie Burns,
and sort contents
of the green bin
into three piles:
lunch, refund cans and bottles,
and unusables.
He shared his recycled,
second-hand lunch
with pigeons, sparrows, squirrels,
and the odd curious seagull.
His guests were
frequently frightened away
by the strength and violence
of his repeated cough,
as his tuberculosis
brought this urban
Saint Francis of Assisi
daily closer
to his lonely martyrdom.
Bridge Epiphany
The bridge tower
beckoned to him,
like some strange
and shining fortress
from the fantasy books
of his youth;
that distant time
before his parents divorced,
and his world died.
The view,
from his perch
on the pylon,
seemed
to be of twinkling faerie lights,
viewed through the shimmer
of Avalon’s mist.
He forgot, momentarily,
the sadness
of running away,
and the cruel reality
of the streets.
In a moment of crystalline clarity,
he saw that
the meaning of his life,
of his pain,
of his very being,
was only a prelude
to the finality of now,
as the wind
of his swift passage
parted the fog
to reveal a glad smile
that would see
no tomorrows.
An anthology of black and white poetic snapshots of societal mores and priorities in a changing urban environment
Against the Wall
The crypt coldness
were a hentai fantasy;
short, with slits
and scoop;
and a mile of leg
disappearing
into leather micro.
Her eyes held that look
of reflective knowledge
found only in the better work
of a few Dutch Masters.
The mind-place
she visited while working
was an old friend
from a lost childhood,
a place to which
she continued to be drawn,
even after learning
her test was positive.
Shelter
She
sits quietly,
near the window,
eyes nervously
tracking
remembered pain.
She
does not know
where
she will go
when
frugal municipal funds
force closure
on her shelter.
She
still believes
if she had tried
harder,
if she were
a better person,
he would never
have hurt her.
The Swarming
The Library was her refuge:
through her thick lenses
she travelled far beyond
these sordid streets.
She lunched
with Byron and Yeats;
held off dervishes
with Gordon.
She was a true Bene Gesserit;
a Reverend Mother
of some note.
In the litter-planted park
the Ten cursed and fought,
discussing,
monosyllabic,
the direction the evening
should take.
Their oversized clothing,
with uniform drabness,
prompted visions
of children
playing dress-up
in the rainy-day attic of a kinder world.
They surrounded
and devoured her
in their contrived anger.
Broken glasses,
scattered books,
ripped pages, lay mute
in the mud.
Her broken body
was serene and regal:
somewhen
the Sisterhood
mourned the passing
of a respected colleague,
and, at the siege of Khartoum,
Gordon fought on,
alone.
“Body and Soul”*
The mellow sound
of his alto sax
suffuses
the pedestrian mall
with the echo
of a gentler
time.
Several older listeners
think of Charlie Parker,
of Stan Getz,
and of the magical freedom
jazz bestows
on the human
soul.
His worn Stetson
accepted the tribute
of coins
that could not begin
to feed the hunger
behind
his scarred arms.
He plays
as though his spirit
was aflame,
the difficulty of his
methadone treatment
and his worsening Hep C
forgotten.
He smiles
as several of his listeners
break into applause,
just before
tone-deaf Mall Security
roughly tells him
to move along.
* “Body and Soul” is the title of a recording made in 1939 by Coleman Hawkins that became THE model for later jazz solos on all instruments.
Reuse-Return-Recycle
The rusted wreck
of the broken shopping cart
serendipitously proceeded
from one green plastic
mother lode
to the next.
Its guide,
hidden beneath layers
that could have inspired
Escher’s genius at morphing,
was, however, more evocative
of Hieronymus Bosch.
He mined
each green trove assiduously,
adding nuggets of refundable treasure
carefully
to his creaking, wobbling chariot.
His acute accountant’s mind
kept a running total
in crisp, clean ledgers that,
alone, survived
the culture shock,
the corporate downsizing,
of the Nineteen Eighties.
Fog People
You often
almost see them
from the corner
of your eye.
You sense
a wisp of grey,
a floating,
ethereal
movement
that suddenly
d i s s o l v e s.
They drift
quietly,
gently,
on the edge
of our consciousness:
these pale,
these grey,
these haunting
people,
whom all,
but Time,
have forgotten.
If we chance
to pause,
to peer beyond
the drifting veil,
we see,
within the shroud,
a preview of ourselves
tomorrow.
Injection
The television
and the cell phone
from the break-in
purchased
a plastic packet
of peace.
The needle
was new:
clean and free.
Soon
the magical tsunami
would sweep away
his soul.
The powder,
pure and deadly,
should have been
adulterated
to slow the rush
of fragile heart.
The young man,
releasing the dam,
felt, for an instant,
the cool brick wall
of his derelict mausoleum,
then was gone.
Air Vent Requiem
His muttered dialogue with Jesus
was apologetic and respectful,
politely drawing that Deity’s attention
to cosmic oversights.
The supermarket cart,
full of strange lumps and extrusions,
seemed a natural extension of self.
His eyes never viewed
a potential acquisition directly:
they fluttered, like children’s wishes,
skirting the object of desire,
until, overcome by belief,
he would pounce.
The temperature drop,
that negated the meagre warmth
of the hot air vent that was his home,
temporarily interrupted
his celestial conversation.
In the thin morning light,
the cart stands guard
over the still and huddled body,
like some alien monument
commemorating a battle
few have known.
Under the Bridge
Fog from the river
gathers under the bridge,
dampening cardboard,
chilling marrow
and shrouding soul.
Moans rise
to a waning moon:
nightmare screams
shatter
an uncaring stillness.
Bundles of rags,
drawn to the dying fire,
mutter
querulous monologues
in alien tongues.
Bent figure,
urinating in icy water,
stumbles, splashes,
and is gone
without a ripple.
Testimony
He easily ignored
the stares,
the crude comments,
the threatening gestures,
engendered
by his street-corner ministry:
his testament of Faith.
He overcame his fear
with his Belief
that, even in these squalid
ghetto streets,
the Word
should enlighten.
While he sang
“What a Friend we have
in Jesus,”
a hulk in gangsta garb
spat on him,
and he worried that
his Testimony
only made
his God
sad.
Third World Stigmata
The depth of sadness
in the girl's eyes
held the attention of all
on the air-conditioned
tourist bus.
No older
than eight or nine,
she wove her way deftly
through dense Delhi traffic,
propelling her steel-castered,
wooden platform
with sure strokes of her hands.
Last year
her impoverished parents had
sold her,
the youngest,
so that the family could live.
Her new owner,
realising the value
of his investment,
ensured that the operation,
removing both legs,
was sterile:
she was on the street
within two months.
Pausing at the corner lights,
the bus disgorged
several tourists,
who pressed rupee notes
upon the small amputee.
They had no way of knowing
their gift
perpetuated
slavery and mutilation.
Bus Station Encounter
The stench
of excrement-stained clothing,
of body long unwashed,
almost obscured
the rich vocabulary,
the cultural cadence
of the derelict’s voice.
The young woman
did not hear
his compliments;
did not recognise
his astute and
favourable analysis
of her fashion statement.
She merely said,
“Piss off,
or I’ll scream.”
Diamonds in the Gutter
Smiles flashing,
like memories
of some distant sun,
they pursue
the soccer ball
with feral glee.
Their communication
is joyous,
a staccato burst,
an ethnic melange
born of the urgency
of the streets.
They are aware,
but do not see
the syringes, condoms,
empty bottles;
an alternate reality
from another world.
Dealers, junkies,
pros, and winos:
all known and greeted equally
by these small,
energetic
dreams of tomorrow.
Sound Bite
The motorcade,
stopping before cameras
and microphones,
was as incongruous
as a guffaw at a funeral.
The surrounding buildings,
derelict and time-worn
as the few faces peering,
confused, from the mouldy doorways
and flaking windowsills,
were stark:
tones of black, white, and grey:
a dismal dream of some forgotten disaster.
The mayor,
cloaked with a bonhomie
born of a profound sense of self-worth,
smiled, facing the cameras:
yes, the city had concluded
a mutually satisfying agreement
with the developer.
The area would be
reclaimed,
revitalised,
refurbished,
and released from the state of decay
into which it had fallen.
The one radical reporter
who wished to question
relocation of the low rental units,
the rehab centre, the soup kitchens,
was swept aside
by smiling, applauding businessmen,
anxious to escape
such unsavoury environs.
Curbside Retrospective
His thin shoulders
hunched
against the chill
evening mist,
he surveyed
the oncoming cars
with a weary look
of superior
disdain.
The weariness within
belied
his sixteen years.
He longed for
the peace
of his shabby room,
the distracting noise
and diversion
of his Game Cube.
The Audi slowed...
stopped.
Power window lowered,
terms and conditions
discussed.
The boy noted the tie,
the service club
lapel pin,
and hated the man
nearly as much
as the abusive father,
now
far
away.
Squeegee Kids
Some commuters
drive for
m i l e s
out of their way,
wasting
time and money,
to avoid
Squeegee corners:
the penalty of guilt.
Others pay,
avoiding eye contact,
looking.......straight.......ahead,
afraid
the gunge
of the Squeegee’s rag
may damage Audi shine.
They reinforce
the efficacy of intimidation
as a social grace.
The global village
has come of age,
as this phenomena,
indigenous once
solely to third world cities,
has arrived on
Main Street,
and urban crowding,
with youth unemployment,
makes
the sale of fear
a career of necessity
to those
we continue to
ignore.
Diminished Responsibility
Her pregnancy, only minutes from term,
gave her the look of a tumbleweed
as she stumbled
through killing December cold.
Sally Ann band on windswept corner
marked the passage of one whose experience
was the cosmic opposite of their celestial joy:
"...crib for His bed, the little Lord..."
With labour pains almost constant
she turned into the alley,
sheltering in the shadow of
a green dumpster, which exhorted
a more affluent society to
"Keep our City Clean."
She squatted as her water broke,
and cursed her most recent companion
for throwing her out
when her condition
invalidated her use to him.
She blasted her last two rocks
in the lifeline of her pipe,
and suddenly, “God!”
It was done.
The investigative team
discovered the icy creche
near the area where
the Paras had found her,
collapsed, in the street.
The rookie swore
when he opened the dumpster,
quick tears freezing on his cheeks,
while in the distance,
the Army concluded their ministry
with "O Holy Night."
Sanctuary
The lone priest
fussed over his nightly chores:
fresh coffee made,
fresh styrofoam cups,
bulk cookies,
clean bathroom.
The month old magazines
lay scattered
like the broken promises
of yesterday.
He dreaded
the ritual that was about
to occur:
nightly flow
of addicts,
teenaged prostitutes
of both genders,
older hookers,
and many others
who accepted,
for a brief time,
sanctuary.
He hated
how his body,
kindled
by the presence
of his younger
visitors,
betrayed his faith,
as he fought
a lonely battle,
already lost.
Yesterday’s Children
The stiffness of the morning
will s l o w l y
work its way
out of tired joints.
Bland breakfasts
ensure
regularity,
a welcomed monotony.
Well-planned days
permit
no dismal contemplation
of tomorrow.
We are Yesterday’s children,
remembering too well,
the heat and the passion,
the beauty that was ours.
Hearing echoes
of past glories,
we sojourn here today,
until,
like dreams
and memories,
we gently
fade
away.
The Teacher
Another when,
and he ruled his Eng Lit classes
from the comforts
of tweeds well worn.
Today, though,
stumps of pencils, flags of paper,
were secreted willy-nilly
deep in the rags
that called him home.
Teaching when and where he could,
urchin and ancient alike
found benefit
from his memory of a life
before his Fall.
A name spelled here,
welfare application there,
laboured reading
of gutter-trapped headlines;
the street seemed less ugly
for his students.
Shorn heads and hard booted,
the Furies fell upon him
one cold night
for possession of his half bottle
of fortified wine.
Surrounded by his small blank bits of paper,
and short, sharpened stubs of pencils,
he resembled nothing so much
as an incomplete jigsaw puzzle,
its meaning not quite clear.
Waiting for the Night
His reinforced aluminum
sturdy-grip cane
timidly precedes him,
its three legs
reminiscent
of a baby Triffid,
uncertain
in an alien
environment.
The twice-weekly visit
of a harried
social worker
barely scratches
the surface
of his age-imposed
needs:
his clothes are dirtier,
diet less varied,
body weaker,
sight dimmer,
brain more forgetful
than a few short
months ago.
Puzzled,
at the foot of the steps,
he has already
forgotten
his destination:
his Triffid
slowly
leads him
into city traffic.
The Choice
The magnitude
of his fear
dwarfed
his thirteen years.
While crushing
his spirit,
the streets also
extinguished hope.
Perhaps home,
with continuing abuse,
would remove
the terror
of the alleys.
Nemesis
She was proud of her skill
with her three-toed cane.
Her walk
from the Home
to Thrift Store
took just twenty minutes:
then fifteen minutes
to the donut shop
where she’d meet
some of the Girls.
Concentrating
on her next step,
she was shocked,
surprised,
as her faithful shoulder bag
was wrenched
from her grip.
Baggy trousers
slowed his sprint;
dragging cuffs
impeded his balance
as fate,
gravity,
and forward motion
conspired,
then placed him in the path
of the accelerating Transit bus.
She recovered her handbag,
and left the scene
without
a backward
glance.
The Guardian
As an active father, long ago,
he had worn parental responsibility
as a proud and brilliant banner.
His children, now grown,
banner-draped themselves,
frequently implored
he join them in their far-off lives.
He would not, however,
leave her grave untended;
could not abandon shared dreams
that wisped, like Atlantic fog,
through city streets
where they had strolled,
in kinder years, together.
Now, from the window
of his third-floor walk-up,
he surveyed the children of strangers.
Neighbourhood Watch
provided name and number
of an interested, responsive officer,
who valued civic responsibility.
Drug dealers avoided
his visual charges:
bullies and punks sought distant,
more fertile ground.
In the street, children skipped,
tossed balls, laughed and played
under his watchful eye.
Behind him, sometimes,
in the twilight,
he imagined her presence,
and felt the warmth
of her vanished smile.
Urban Diorama
The park,
an oasis of green calm
threatened by a desert
of office towers,
was the place,
favoured by the avatars
of the fiscal god Chaos,
for a quick lunch
and smoke.
Precisely at one-o-five
he would shamble
to his special bench,
across from the pigeon toilet
that resembled
Robbie Burns,
and sort contents
of the green bin
into three piles:
lunch, refund cans and bottles,
and unusables.
He shared his recycled,
second-hand lunch
with pigeons, sparrows, squirrels,
and the odd curious seagull.
His guests were
frequently frightened away
by the strength and violence
of his repeated cough,
as his tuberculosis
brought this urban
Saint Francis of Assisi
daily closer
to his lonely martyrdom.
Bridge Epiphany
The bridge tower
beckoned to him,
like some strange
and shining fortress
from the fantasy books
of his youth;
that distant time
before his parents divorced,
and his world died.
The view,
from his perch
on the pylon,
seemed
to be of twinkling faerie lights,
viewed through the shimmer
of Avalon’s mist.
He forgot, momentarily,
the sadness
of running away,
and the cruel reality
of the streets.
In a moment of crystalline clarity,
he saw that
the meaning of his life,
of his pain,
of his very being,
was only a prelude
to the finality of now,
as the wind
of his swift passage
parted the fog
to reveal a glad smile
that would see
no tomorrows.
The Visitors
There once existed, on a far-off planet, a civilisation of beings that was founded on love, trust, and mutual respect. The concept of a police force or an army would not have been understood here, as crime and war were not words in the language of this people.
The highest accomplishment in this society was to add to the collective aesthetic. Architects built high, airy, soaring buildings in consultation with musicians, so that when the buildings were erected and caressed by the soft prevailing winds, a gentle tone poem was produced that added to the enjoyment of the environment visually and aurally. One city to the south was inhabited entirely by poets, and had been so inhabited for thousands of years. Each poet was expected to contribute one line to a poem that told the entire history of these gentle people. It was a work in progress that was monumental in both concept and scope. We must understand that these poets had evolved over long millennia to the point that, when they wrote, the words they used were toned to evoke emotive responses in the listener through subtle frequency changes. It is interesting to note that this world had no written language: there was no requirement for it, as anything worth saying could be said, and anything worth remembering would be remembered.
One artist had given himself the task of composing a picture symbolising the essence of his world. He thought long on this project, anxious that it should be perfect. Rather than making a hasty decision to start the project, he continued his contemplation without putting paint to canvas. He died peacefully after his four-thousand-year life, but passed his life task on to his warnegs (a word in his language that indicates non-gender-specific spiritual offspring, but also described immortality). Thirty-seven generations later, the present warnegs realised that by virtue of the progression of lives devoted to this project, the picture was presented on the medium of each of their lives, and, as an ongoing work of art, must be continued to be preserved.
Scientists, over the ages, had eliminated sickness, lengthened the lifespan to four thousand years, and perhaps most important, had removed the drudgery from everyday work and housekeeping tasks. Holistic wellness had been enhanced through the medium of specific ganglionic manipulation, achieved through daily humming of a mantric frequency sequence. Each being was free to develop to his best advantage to pursue the common good. If one could survey all of the known universes, both parallel and tangential, one could not find a society that had achieved such a zenith of aesthetic perfection.
These gentle people had no religion, as they had achieved immortality. After living their four thousand lives, they sensed when their physical end was approaching. With a feeling of consuming joy, they would approach another of their kind, touch their heads together in an act called zarlem, and in an instant, the elder would have transferred the core of his being to the other. The body would then disappear, but the essence would continue on in the body of the host. The new arrival would not be alone, as this form of immortality had been going on for more than five million years, and each member of this wondrous society shared her physical being with the essence of millions who had gone before.
One day the scientists on this Utopian planet made a discovery, quite by accident, concerning their friendly, smiling sun, that had shone on them since the dawn of their creation. All of the available facts indicated that, within one half year, this benign star would go nova, destroying its only satellite, their home.
* * * * *
The preparations were at last complete. The shining, egg-shaped ship floated inches above the common, near the centre of the major city of the planet. It would carry 500 physical beings within its silver core. Of cardinal importance though, was the cargo that the five hundred would carry. The voyagers were presently in the process of zarlem with all of the inhabitants of the planet. As each individual touched the head of a voyager, the individual would disappear, but the voyager would have gained yet another personality and the millions of essences contained therein, each as real and vital as the voyager's own character.
Strangely, this process was not a sad one, but was a festive and joyous occasion. The long, intricately formed queues were pleasing to the eye, and the songs and poems, chanted in counterpoint, made the heart vibrate in peaceful exhilaration.
* * * * *
The ship lifted from a planet that was devoid of life. The buildings sang tone poems to no one. The perfect flower designs on swards of the most vivid emerald pleased the eye of none. The perfect sun, that had shone so long on perfection, flickered, then turned an angry orange and exploded in a display of stellar fireworks that soon left that quadrant of the universe empty except for a vast swirling shroud of gas. The silver egg, containing both the past and future of an entire race, sped on, ...and ages passed.
* * * * *
It was a typical afternoon in Central Park: parents walking with their children, office workers relaxing with coffee and sandwich, lovers gazing into each others eyes, and holding hands, three different purse snatchers, one flasher in a London Mist coat ... and Jonathan O'Shea was walking home from his violin lesson.
Jonathan was fourteen years old, an idealist, and a genius. Yale had asked him (much to Harvard's chagrin) if he could join them on a scholarship next term. Jonathan's parents thought that Yale would be good for him, and he was tempted to agree, primarily because of the Medieval Studies program at that university. Jonathan's intellect told him that the Middle Ages were anything but romantic, but his fourteen year old soul longed after a chivalrous age, where knights slew dragons that threatened fair damsels, and virtue was its' own reward.
* * * * *
The five hundred descended in their silver egg, past the ugly towers towards the unruly green park. The ship hovered ten feet above the grass while the passengers looked through the walls and saw the crowds gathering below. They paid no attention to the crowds, as they were enthralled with the large numbers of birds flying about the park. The gentle creatures collectively agreed that, although they did not comprehend all of what they saw, there were as least many present who were not unlike them. The decision was made to go out into the air of their new home and communicate with those who looked almost like them. The ship's wall opaqued, then opened for them, and the travellers went forth into their new home.
The crowds around the silver ship watched in astonishment as five hundred beautiful, bronze-plumed birds flew like a flame through the wall of the ship. When these birds started a strange high singing, the quiet astonishment of the crowd turned to action. A few of the crowd threw frisbees, others threw stones, and baseballs. Most of the phoenix-like creatures were knocked from the skies and torn apart by the grabbing of many hands anxious to salvage one of the burnished feathers.
Jonathan, standing back from the mob, was dismayed by the carnage. When one of the birds dropped, wounded, at his feet, he picked it up and hid it under his jacket. He wasted no time in finding a quiet place where he could examine his patient for wounds. The two stared at each other, each recognising in the other a kindred spirit. The bird keened a mournful, quiet sound that Jonathan could almost understand. He held the bird closer to his ear so he could hear all the subtle nuances of the song. The bird leaned forward and touched Jonathan's forehead with its beak. In the brief intense burst of emotion that flooded throughout every fibre of his body, Jonathan O'Shea received zarlem, with the understanding of what had been done, and was not surprised that the visitor had disappeared.
* * * * *
The last of the visitors, the glowing plumage dulled and drab, died in captivity twenty-seven days after the landing. Jonathan went on to Yale, where his field of studies changed to demographics, sociology, philosophy, and religion.
Ten years after the Landing, Jonathan O'Shea, scholar and warneg, used the accumulated knowledge, culture, and science of another species, and changed the world for the better.
Thursday, 23 August 2007
Cultures of Non-violence, and Blackflies
I have been enthralled by those Hindi and Buddhist adherents who would be aghast at killing even a cockroach.
When I was on posting in Delhi, whenever the High Commission got too crazy with multitudinous political problems, I would take a three-wheeler down to the old city. I would wander the back streets of Chandni Chowk, and the alleyways that encircle the Red Fort. Early in my posting, during one of these rambles, I looked into a small Hindu temple, nestled in the very shadow of the Red Fort.
In the main sanctum, before a small alter composed of images of gods and avatars (Hanuman, Shiva, Khrishna, Deva, and others I did not recognise) stood a beautiful bull, quietly chewing his cud. The Sishya (resident disciple of a Guru) greeted me in Hindi, and I responded in English. Through gestures, he invited me into his quarters, a single room behind the sanctum proper.
The furniture consisted of a small cot, hot plate, and fan. Several pictures of his Guru adorned the sand-coloured walls. An older woman appeared to make strong milky coffee for us. This she served with powdered cardamom sprinkled on top. About a dozen men were seated on the floor, smoking pungent Indian cigarettes, and occasionally passing around a chillum (funnel-shaped clay pipe) filled with a mixture of tobacco and charas, a form of hashish (which I later learned came from the mountainous area around Hrishikesh).
A sidenote at this point: it appears that the temple was dedicated to, and the Sishya an adherent of, Shaivism (in which, simple put, Shiva (Siva) is the main deity). Many devotees of Shaivism use hashish to enhance their religious experience, and, supposedly, to see more clearly their path through this incarnation. This was the heyday of the American War on Drugs, but I refused to take the view that these gentlemen were drug addicts, intent on getting stoned and dangerous.
Some of the Sishya's backroom guests fortunately spoke English, and I was able, over the next three years, to learn much about their religion, and practices. Crossing the floor was a column of large black ants, with massive mandibles. They were about 3 cm long, and looked extremely aggressive. I asked a man next to me why they didn't get rid of the ants. He laughed, and spoke at length to the Sishya, who also laughed. The man then explained to me, as to a child, that the ants, as well as Sahib, our Canadian guest, has reason to seek the refuge of Shiva's temple, and may well be atoning for evils accumulated in a previous existence. Hence, he continued, we do not kill our brothers.
Works for me, although mosquitoes and blackflies have sinned far too much in previous lives, so I hurry them on to their next incarnation with much glee.
Peace, and namaste
Monday, 20 August 2007
Bucharest Spring: 1982
Strains of gypsy violins
floated, in aural rhapsody,
on the sumac scented air
of Floreasca Park.
Other lovers
also strolled,
but we were elsewhere-
a place out of time,
where we existed
only in our eyes.
Cherry blossoms burst
in vernal excitement
in the gardens
of the old Bucur Restaurant.
The open window
by our mezzanine table
with its guttering candle,
admitted a subtle miasma
that focussed our world
to this eternal moment.
The rain-washed cobbles
of Calea Victoriei
echoed reflected fairy lights,
illuminating the enchanted night.
The Arcul de Triomphe
loomed from the mist,
a monumental signpost
on the magical journey
that would lead us, spell-bound,
into our shared future.
Beijing Morning
with a rattle of scales, he yawns.
The sun, rising
in the east, is red.*
At seven in the morning
the Imperial City is alive
beneath the lifting night shroud
of coal smoke
Japanese cars have replaced
ten million bicycles.
The stone lions keep watch
over Tien-an-min;
in their snarls, surprise
at Chang’An traffic.
The masses sport Gucci,
Dior, where once blue ruled.
Hot breads, tea, and tai chi
still prevail.
In the Western Hills
the Buddhas watch, bells tinkling,
a delayed Industrial Revolution
struggling, growing.
In the compounds and factories
where once loudspeakers preached
Party lines, headlines in low fidelity,
CD stereos play.
MTV replaces the Red Book.
Children march in day care centres:
sailing the educational seas
no longer depends on the Helmsman.*
The dragon,
eyes weak with sleep,
cannot yet see beyond his lair.
Hunger rumbles in his vitals,
and soon he must roam
beyond his hills.
—James D. Fanning
* In the 1960s and early 70s, two of the songs heard most frequently over public loudspeakers throughout China were The East Is Red, and, Sailing the Seas Depends on the Helmsman (a reference, of course, to Chairman Mao). jdf
Abu Dhabi Mosaic
The Corniche skirts
the bath-warm waters of the Gulf,
jewelled with elegant,
pristine office towers
that caress
a sere and scorching sky.
Mercedes and Lexus,
adorned with gold-plate trim,
sedately chauffeur
the descendants of the Bani Yas
through what, only a few decades past,
was a collection of tents
and mud huts
sprinkled across
the unforgiving sand.
At the Gold Souk
black-garbed women seek
golden adornment
that will remain hidden
beneath voluminous abbaya,
while their dark and canny eyes
flash through gold-threaded
full facial masks.
At the Sheridan,
a doorman folds back massive doors
that permit access
to yet another gold-plated Merc.
The occupant joins colleague
on an arrangement of embroidered cushions
on the marble floor
of the air-conditioned lobby.
A brazier of coals heats coffee
offered in traditional and ancient
desert hospitality.
Sparkling new pickup trucks
transport contemptuous dromedaries
whose racing skills will be tested
at the evening camel races.
To the south the hypnotic dunes
march relentlessly towards
the Rub al-Khali, the Empty Quarter,
where hides Uban,
the fabled lost city of Arabia,
beneath its timeless sands.
A Drive to Tangalle Bay
The road from Colombo,
an olfactory hallucination,
ambles south
in a cloud of curry spice,
the saline scent of breaking surf,
and the humble miasma
of coir,
drying in the sun.
Past the neo-hippie haven
of Hikkaduwa,
jewelled with topless bathers,
glass-bottomed boats,
and the elusive, sweet,
suggestion of cannabis
on the warm breeze.
Through the old Dutch fort
of Galle,
roadside vendors
offer drinking coconuts,
hot samosas,
and tasty, dark
jaggery fudge,
made with palm sugar.
Buddhist temples
and images
sprinkle villages
with sanctuaries of calm
and contemplation:
respite from the wave
of tourists
who somehow impart
a garish patina of crassness
upon this gentle land.
At night,
from Tangalle Bay,
stars cascade
into a southern sea,
and are answered
by the bobbing lanterns
of night fishermen
in outrigger dugouts.
Mature waves break
on sandy shingle,
while their kindred march,
unimpeded,
to Antarctica,
eight thousand miles away.
Thursday, 9 August 2007
Gaia's Dream
The Goddess dreams:
they swirl like clouds
of dark matter
filling cosmic emptiness
with something unknown,
but profound.
Her children have long deserted her
to create new,
invisible gods
with commandments
more lenient,
less stringent,
absolute and terrifying,
than hers.
We poison her seas,
foul her air,
soil her earth.
We strip her foliage,
kill her beasts,
plunder her resources
with no thought,
no thanks,
no care.
The Goddess dreams;
a violent dream
of punishment,
of decimation,
in which she waits
in barren, airless splendour
until her time is,
again.
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The Ancient Hippie
Welcome, and Namaste
Greetings fellow travellers,
For you American friends visiting, you will notice that this old Canadian uses Canadian English in this blog: kindly bear with me. As I blog primarily on subjects that are vitally interesting to me, I appreciate all feedback.
As I tend to be a bit of a language usage freak, I will, as required, edit obscenity and rude comments. That said, I welcome your opinions and discussion.
May your Dharma be clear
Peace
"If we shadows have offended,
Think but this, and all is mended:
That you have but slumb'red here,
While these visions did appear."
Puck’s epilogue to A Midsummer Night’s Dream
For you American friends visiting, you will notice that this old Canadian uses Canadian English in this blog: kindly bear with me. As I blog primarily on subjects that are vitally interesting to me, I appreciate all feedback.
As I tend to be a bit of a language usage freak, I will, as required, edit obscenity and rude comments. That said, I welcome your opinions and discussion.
May your Dharma be clear
Peace
"If we shadows have offended,
Think but this, and all is mended:
That you have but slumb'red here,
While these visions did appear."
Puck’s epilogue to A Midsummer Night’s Dream